Today’s repatterning unexpectedly brought together two of my passions – music and badminton! It was a Movement for Life Repatterning, which is all about transforming negative beliefs and feelings that inhibit our natural and spontaneous movement. Movement is essential for well-being and has an important connection to vision as it stimulates the inflow of light into the eyes and brain.
In the first part of the repatterning, I was asked to identify my problem with movement. My statements was, “I can’t coordinate my movements to flow and be graceful and powerful. I can’t dance, smash, and play μπουζούκι.”
The next few statements were all negative. Some of these come from a list, for others, a question is asked and the response slots into a sentence, while for others still, it is up to me to come up with the entire sentence as an answer to the question. You’ll notice all statements are in the present tense. This is important as the resonance is present with us still, right now, in this moment, regardless of when the experience, message, belief, or feeling might have its origins in our life. We also need to bear in mind that, once resonance is shifted, we will want to be resonating with a positive, present day statement, such as, “I am strong,” rather than something like, “I will be strong,” sometime in the undefined future.
Physical movement issue: “I collapse my chest.” Disconnection between movement and pleasure: “I am not moving forward in my life with energy and enthusiasm.” Fears that constrict movement: “I am afraid that there is no hope for change and this inhibits my free and flexible movement.” And from the list: “I am afraid of being constrained,” and “I am afraid of thunderstorms.” Negative emotions constricting movement: “I react with anger.” Societal message that constricts movement: “You have too much energy.” The feeling associated with this message: “This feeling of anger disconnects me from my light and prevents me from moving freely, confidently and gracefully.” The negative belief resulting from receiving this message: “Energy is limited.” The body position connected to my anger – this was a rigid stance, hands balled into fists, glaring. And finally a positive statement that reflects what this rigid body position gives me that is positive: “I am powerful and free.”
All these statements (and the body position) were on, apart from the last one, which, being a positive statement, was off, as expected. There were a couple of statements here where I found myself thinking, “I don’t do that!”, and I had to remind myself that, even if that’s true, I clearly resonate with doing that, which probably means that I spend an awful lot of my energy stopping myself from doing it, and that, after the session, this energy will be freed up to be used in a much more constructive way!
The next section in this repatterning is about identifying the social limitations that constrict movement. As social beings, we care an awful lot what others think of us and much of what we do in life is influenced by our perception of others’ opinion of us.
“When I play music, I feel awkward, stilted, ugly, bad, uncoordinated, inadequate, and awful,” was on. “I am graceful, captivating, beautiful, dextrous, talented, coordinated, exceptional, fluid, excellent, confident, and a star,” was off. “I let go of the negative experience of my first piano lesson and regain my joy and ease in playing music,” was also off.
I have to say that I don’t have a clear memory of my first piano lesson, but I do remember that I didn’t much like my teacher. I can’t help but wonder how many times this will come up in the next weeks as I work through my issues with music. In my experience, multiple sessions are often needed to completely clear the charge of an earlier experience. I guess we’ll see!
The eye muscles are the first place in our body where we experience tension in stressful situations and, as a result of this tension, this affects the way in which light enters our body and leads to the tension cascading through to other muscles that try to compensate for our eyes suddenly not being quite level and allowing a balance of light into our brain. In this next part of the repatterning, we identify where the tension is held in our eyes. In my case, the tension was in the extrinsic eye muscles which control the shape of the eyeball and how light enters the eyes.
My statement was: “Tension in the superior rectus of my right eye and flaccidity in the inferior rectus of both my eyes.” This was on.
Now to integrate the new possibility for movement, I needed a positive movement memory, that is to remember a time when I moved easily, spontaneously and energetically. I was off for resonating with imagining myself moving with the same ease, spontaneity, and energy in the present.
The next couple of sections deal with the eye and body movement needed to reestablish free movement. My statements and resonances were as follows:
“I blink my eyes easily.” –off Checking my resonance with actually doing the above –off “I am graceful.” -off “I release tension by rocking from side to side.” -off Checking my resonance with actually doing the above -off
And finally the positive action needed to integrate the new neural pathways and resonance established through this session: “I am 100% committed to playing μπουζούκι for joy often.” This was off. Small wonder then that I haven’t been practicing! I guess I’m going to have to remedy that.
My spiral up option was the laughing breath, which basically involves laughing! Having completed it, I felt lighter, happy, relaxed, and all my statements had shifted resonance.
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With love and gratitude, Sophia